hi time to update my blog again... so what's been happening??

Have been pretty exciting both in RP and in our RMIT group too.. haha! and obviously with studies too... but this week havent been much studying for me... the first few days, i was affected by some stuff and it kinda hit on me till wednesday where things took a better turn... and thanks to Livi... her advice.. it really helped... and wrote a diary letter to God on friday morningm shared my deepest feelings and my sins that have caused me not to do my best for so many months. i understood, i struggled but i cannot live in the past. anway, going thru some of the weeks events

Sunday 2nd April: went to ah perd's house at Kensington. Wah, very nice place. I had asked God about friendship, and i guess that day, he somesort showed me alot of love and care through so many people in the house. i really felt very blessed. Elis, christin, hendra, berry and so many others, just so family and so warm. Then i went to ruth's house to have dinner, chat for a while and then Jonathan fetched me home.

Monday: had a queer dream, affected me quite abit... didnt really go class, went to library to study instead, then went to check out stuff at the supermarket for groceries for the bbq on friday. Drizzled as i went home. was thinking about friendships, sometimes a teet disappointed when you care, but no one else does, been feeling lonely lately... on msn, in school... just lonely... people dun ask, people dun even respond as u want... self centred? i am just tired i guess... germs been going through some tough times too... hope to be there for her, gave her some advice and a listening ear. strength must have came from God.

Tuesday: went to management class. did not do too well for my first test paper, but it showed me my standards and the things i need to improve in. theory must come with understanding. However in my HOM class, i did much better. results have been soaring in the class for me, but i m not going to be too proud, because i know there is still alot of work to be done. still affected in thoughts and felt no one really understood or would understand anyway. Just GOd and me.

Wednesday: Got over abit. Went to lecture, had funny teacher Castor. Really nice teacher, he acutally organises activities just to give students another feel of university life and that life as a university student is not boring. hope i can do the same for the christiandom too. i dun think christianity is a religion, i think it is a lifestyle, an exciting, challenging and a really encouraging aspect of my life and may it be seen to many as that too. Lots to improve but moving on. Feelings getting better. Went for lunch with more people from the lecture, Anh is finally joining us. haha! had a good time knowing people and making them feel joyful. The next lecture class was boring, but shorter. It was very very very cold. I actually went shopping with Jeni for a while, bumped into Breka, said she was going to a party and was looking for clothes. i went to a bookshop, was looking for some stories in particular. read brokeback mountain, triggered some thoughts about life and homosexuality. went home in the rain, bumped into Eliz and christin, they did not go to class today, after lunch, they head off to buy handphones. i did not study. i was too occupied in mind to. did nothing much that day... talked to livi, told her how i feel about certain things... she gave some advice.

Thursday: Woke up with a different spirit. did not go class this morning. Wah, i pong this week the most, but went down for a bbq in school. was blessed with the same lunch people. and after that george and i went to play table tennis and pool... almost 3 hours. He was patient in teaching me. then it hit onto me, that everyone has different strengths, though he was not good in english, but he was good in table tennis. He taught me patiently, then i think back of the way i helped him too withe Jeni too. WE exchanged strengths. HE looked small but was really active. Judge too fast again, but i thank God for the opportunity to know him more today. ANother china guy called michael played with us too. We promised another appointment of table tennis again. haha!
walked to library, saw ruth and gang again. haha! went to play pool wiht her then ate lunch. didnt know if we were still that close... she has her own good friends and a great church... but guess i treasure the friendship. sat in the cold, looking at people play basketball... didnt think about anything, just took a break in my mind. Met elis, we talked real long with one of her students. was a nice long chat... elis really listens and that is the area i got to grow in more. Shared to her what i felt recently, the disappointments, just my life... haha! went home... talked to God... wrote something in my diary, apologising.. havent been the best... never have been, but he never gave up on me, and did wonderful things. i repented in the sinful areas and the areas that caused me not to see growth in people and in groups i lead. i desired change. i know i will strugggle, but i want to be stronger. thanks... it really hit upon me a truth, a fact, of the reason of slow growth. he always put in my heart that things could have been better, but i usually just chose ohter things, i covered certain paths, thinking no one knows... but i knew he knew... and he knew honestly how i felt. i struggle to tell my good friends, scared they will see me differently, btu hey they are good friends... but today God came first and may it be everyday. 1 cor 2 hit me most... power of the HS

Friday: DId my driving... better, just that i panic quite a bit when i drive fast, but improving i think... hahaha! waas busy with the barbeque stuff but it was a fun time. We had a few friends who came, though i was hoping for more... my other friends did not come... who came? Ferry, Stefanus, Hendra, Daniel, Sharon, Yanling, Dat, Berry, Nina and me! hee... yeah... a little ccm/cg event. played soccer and had a good laugh seeing the girls played. hope everyone enjoyed themselves too. Alas! did not take picture! must record all the happenings that go on! hee.. thinking of setting up a blog for them! =)

This week a mini time to really know myself, my dark areas but most importantly... MY god who brings me through... changing perspective, teaching truth, bringing life... growing.. still growing! more passionate...


RP is doing well too.. feel like hai.. not that to witness it... but i know GOd is doing great things in the team, and i pray to see them grow so much more... leaders are strong and excited... thank God for alvin and sharon, love your enthusiasm even in times of adversity, you all are people who look thru the dark with a torchlight and stand up strong. Come on rp team, come on the core team especially, jovin, jerrome, jason and windez, elaine, jasmine... desire, build and be the pillars that will build more walls to come... others darryl, hengyu, and others... be involve... let's strive to love GOd more... establish his kingdom strong... i am fighting here too... =) with u in spirit and passion... Do well in easter!!!! 3 converts! kampatei! HS, u r in this too hor! haha!


Love,
pearline